All I want is to be with the man I love. Even in dreams I want to be with him. But in reality, I can’t really be with him because of some undefined reasons.
Breathing fresh air and viewing the entire beauty of our university from the roof top really refreshes my mind. That math exam really separated my brain into two. Why do that teacher really give us exam as if there’s no tomorrow?! I was thinking in my mind madly. Then I decided to take my lunch but before going to the cafeteria I decided to go first to the comfort room because I can’t control the call of nature anymore. To my mistake because I’m in a hurry, I entered the wrong room! It was male’s comfort room! I saw an unfamiliar guy, I
think he’s just a new student here but that doesn’t matter. Damn! I buried my face into my palms; said sorry then left that very embarrassing atmosphere immediately. I think he was the only person there, thank God! At least only one knows about it. How I wish he didn’t notice my face. I sighed. I took my lunch then go straight to my class room.
As I was reviewing my notes for our next exam, I heard someone’s playing a guitar and it really sounds pretty good, relaxing, I yawned. I was bit sleepy that time because I didn’t sleep much the previous night because I was studying for our exam today. It went better when he started singing. I followed the owner of the voice and found out that he’s just next room to mine. I entered the room, looked for a chair and sat next to him. He smiled at me still singing and playing his guitar, I smiled back.
After the song ended, he asked “What’s your name?”
“A-ah my name is Kimberly. Kim for short.” I answered nervously. “I’m Kyuhyun Cho or you can call me Kyu. An exchange student from Korea.”
He extended his right arms towards me and plastered a smile on his face. He’s damn cute! I thought to my self while staring at him and I forgot that his hand is waiting for my response so I shook his hand hurriedly and managed to give a smile. But smile on my face suddenly vanished when he started laughing.
“Wait, I remembered you.” He stated. <!––nextpage––>
“Oh no.” I whispered. Yeah, he was the guy in the comfort room! Shit! What a small world!
“That was you. The girl in the –“ He wasn’t able to continue his sentence because I covered his mouth with my palms.
“No need to mention that. Promise me not to tell that to anyone.” I begged as I release my palms from his mouth.
“In one condition.” He said teasingly.
“Well, I have no choice. What is it?”
“I’m just new here so can you help me or guide me in the university?”
“Is that all?” I asked him and he nodded. “Sure! No problem.” I answered happily. I will surely enjoy this, I promised to my self.
“Okay.” He cutely chuckled and extended his right hand again as a sign of our agreement.
Days passed and Kyuhyun seemed to be a special friend of mine. I helped him in the university and he helped me too in my math subject; he’s really smart at it. We mostly spend our time to each other. Before heading to my classroom, I looked for him at the music room where he usually practices playing his guitar, we eat lunch together, study our lessons together, or during weekend we hang out and sometimes he accompany me in going home. Isn’t that sweet? Hahaha.
One semester has passed. One semester that full of happiness, laughter and love with the Korean exchange student Kyuhyun Cho. My feelings for him just grew bigger and stronger. He did not know about it and if I’ll confess to him, I’m afraid what will happen next. I don’t want him to think that I’m just taking advantage in our friendship. It’s just that … I wasn’t able to control my heart. And how will you able to control your heart if those mesmerizing smiles, sparkling eyes, perfect-shaped nose, prominent cheek bone are what you see everyday?! Plus the fact that he’s really caring, understanding, intelligent, talented, pure heaven! He’s really a boyfriend-material or should I say a husband-material for me.
One Friday night just after I took a bath, I received a text message from Kyuhkyun and I hurriedly opened it. It says “Would you mind spend a cup of tea with me?” Huh? It’s already 10pm and he must be at his apartment now. I was a bit confused looking on the screen of my phone. And I thought he’s just playing tricks at me so I replied “You must sleep now. Goodnight.” I dropped my phone on the bed and go straight to my closet to look for a big shirt and pajamas as my usual sleeping attire.
My phone ringed and I saw Kyuhyun’s name flashing on the screen of my phone. At first I don’t want to answer it so I just continue looking a shirt and pajamas but he’s still calling so decided to answer it but before I could say anything he already scolded me.
“What did it take you so long to answer my call?”
“I was in the bathroom and preparing my self to go to sleep. Why? Where are you?”
“In front of your house. It’s really cold here outside!”
“Oh! Really? I’m sorry Kyu!” I exclaimed in nervousness and excitement. “Wait. I’ll just wear my clothes.” I ended the call then run to my closet to see what I would wear.
I ran as fast as I could through the door and opened it.
“Hi!” I greeted him while panting.
“Hello! Why are you sweating?” He asked worriedly.
“Ahm, it’s very hot here. I didn’t turn on the aircon that’s why.” I lied and tried to give a convincing smile.
“Come in.” He entered and sat down on the couch. “Drinks? Coffee? Tea?” I offered. “Anything.” He answered and damn! He smiled! Why does he need to smile always? Does he want me to die? He never fails to make me fall over and over and over again with him. Okay, I need to go to the kitchen. I came back to the living room with two glasses of milk. I sat down next to him and offered the one glass to him.
“Milk?” He asked in confusion the let out a small laugh. “So what brought you here?” I asked him as he slowly sips a drink from his milk. I just stared at him as his precious lips slowly touching the edge of the glass. You’re such a lucky glass!
“Ahm, I have something important to tell you.”
“What is it?” I asked excitedly and started sipping a drink from my milk.
“There’s girl that I love but she doesn’t know about it. I do always want to confess it to her but I can’t.” He said seriously.
I stopped sipping my milk. I felt my heart ripped apart. Who’s that girl Kyu? How could you to do this to me? Why am I blaming Kyu? Did Kyu say to love him? Why am I over reacting? I’m just a friend to him. A FRIEND! Maybe he doesn’t feel the same just like mine. I’m sorry. Yeah, it’s my fault.
“So this is the important thing that you want to tell me?” I emphasized the word important because of my temper. “You’re disgusting! It’s already late. Go home now!”
“W-what? But I’m not done yet.”
“I don’t want to hear the rest. I’m so sleepy. Go home!” I tried to push him with all the force left in my body until we reached the door and I locked it immediately leaving Kyuhyun clueless.
The following day 11 in the morning, I was still on my bed when Kyuhyun called and asked me to go to his apartment.
“Why? I have something important to do today.” I lied because I actually I do not have anything to do today. It’s just that … I don’t want to see him right now because of his last nights’ confession. It still hurts me. My eyes are bit swollen because I cried hardly. How stupid of me! I shouted in my mind.
“Please? It’s really important.” He begged.
“Okay. See you!”
“Hey wait!” He ended the call and I felt his excitement. What is he planning to do? I got up and go straight to the kitchen and prepared a cup of coffee. I then cleaned my room; finished my school works, and surfed the net. It was 3pm when I felt sleepy so I decided to take a nap and I woke up 6pm just one hour before our.
I arrived exactly 7pm at Kyuhyun’s apartment. I pressed the door bell a couple of times and no one opened the door for me so I panicked maybe something bad happened to him so I decided to come in.
“Why are the lightsoff? Hey Kyuhyun!” I shouted as I reached for the switch to turn on the lights. When the lights are already on, I was surprise to see petals of roses scattered on the floor. Kyuhyun was just standing there holding a bouquet of flower. He gave it to me.
“Don’t play around with me.” I said in a voice of authority.
“I’m not playing around with you.”
“Then what’s this?” I‘m pointing to the card that has “to the girl that I love …”
“What’s the problem ‘bout that?” He asked in confusion.
“You want me to give this to her? To your …” I just sighed.
“What are you talking about? I’m giving it to you and it’s yours.”
My eyes widened. My heart is beating fast. What did he say? Did I hear it correctly? He said he’s giving it to me? Does this mean that girl is me?
He’s moving forward towards me. My body is frozen. I want to move backward but it was just the wall at all that I can feel from my back. He reached me out and pulled me into a hug. My body is still frozen.
“Hey! Hug me back.” He demanded.
“A-ah? W-what? S-sorry!” I was stumbling in my words.
“I love you Kim.” He whispered into my ears while caressing my hair.
Those words are the words that I want to hear from the man that I love most. I don’t know what to say. I can’t believe this is happening to me and I didn’t notice my eyes are already wet.
“Why are you crying?” He asked worriedly.
“I love you too! I love you Kyu!” It was all I could say.
I then put my hands around his neck and hug him tightly. His next move made my heart beats faster. He is slowly crossing the distance between our lips! Our noses almost touch. In that moment, I closed my eyes. This is it! I already heard the words that I want to hear from him. This time, I want to taste his precious lips that always drive me crazy every time he pouts. How lucky am I to deserve a Kyuhyun Cho. After how many seconds, still not feeling anything pressing my lips made me whined.
I was shocked to hear my mother’s voice calling my name. Huh? What is she doing here?
“Wake up Kim! You’re already late in your class!” She yelled.
That’s the time I opened my eyes and I realized all of that was just a dream. What a beautiful dream! I stretched my arms, wear my eyeglasses and finally got up from my bed. Time to go to school and upon entering the gate of our school, I saw the guy who I was dreaming a while ago. Kyuhyun Cho, the math wizard, the president of the student council, and the most popular student in our school. So how can he possibly love me or like me if for him I’m just the popular nerd and shy girl and most of all, his secretary in the student council. However, dreams do exist! Another busy day at school and another day to love you more Kyuhyun Cho.
About This Story
Story written by Kimberly Rose of Western Mindanao State University (WMSU), College of Physical Education Recreation and Sports (CPERS).
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